Friday, September 24, 2010

the family trip

Trip plan update. Well we have actually book our travel and have our flights and hotels taken care of. We plan to Go to Italy in October. We will pull Brighton for a week and hopefully be able to do some travel related extra credit. I have to say that I am now getting excited now. It is good to have something happy to be planning. I have been reading the travel books and have pulled out the travel gear. I have started to make the list of all things that we might need, the list of things that I am missing. Thank you Rick Steves for all the tips. Life is still hard and you I am not getting over the loss of my angel and the heart aches of the past year, but we get through it. So long for now.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

2 months down

It is hard to believe that it has already been two months since our sweet angle left us. It is now another major holiday and I still see things every day that I missed putting away of hers. Yesterday, I ran across her xrays and remember how we were planning to be in Galveston for surgery, but never made it. I was also talking to my mother about upcoming holidays and realized that I could not even remember last Christmas. Neither my mother, nor I could remember how we spent the holiday. By process of elimination, we realized that we had been in Amarillo, but I can not remember any of the details. The stress of the past year was just so hard and I don't think I realized it at the time, but I still feel really beaten up. It is getting better, but I wonder how long it will take to get my brain back. I was really smart at one time and I am just not as sharp now. I think I am doing pretty good, I am working hard to keep it all together, but I still just don't get all the things done that I would like.

Today was a good day. The cleaning girls were here today and I was busy with some spring cleaning. I was planning to take up a couple of photo albums up stairs and started looking at pictures of Molly. I had forgotten so much. She looked so good before the seizures. I had so much hope at that time, it was all going to be OK. She was so beautiful and I miss her so much. I still do not understand these past two years, but I am confident that God does have a plan, I just wish I knew what it was.

Thank you all for the continued prayers and support. -T