It is hard to believe that it has already been two months since our sweet angle left us. It is now another major holiday and I still see things every day that I missed putting away of hers. Yesterday, I ran across her xrays and remember how we were planning to be in Galveston for surgery, but never made it. I was also talking to my mother about upcoming holidays and realized that I could not even remember last Christmas. Neither my mother, nor I could remember how we spent the holiday. By process of elimination, we realized that we had been in Amarillo, but I can not remember any of the details. The stress of the past year was just so hard and I don't think I realized it at the time, but I still feel really beaten up. It is getting better, but I wonder how long it will take to get my brain back. I was really smart at one time and I am just not as sharp now. I think I am doing pretty good, I am working hard to keep it all together, but I still just don't get all the things done that I would like.
Today was a good day. The cleaning girls were here today and I was busy with some spring cleaning. I was planning to take up a couple of photo albums up stairs and started looking at pictures of Molly. I had forgotten so much. She looked so good before the seizures. I had so much hope at that time, it was all going to be OK. She was so beautiful and I miss her so much. I still do not understand these past two years, but I am confident that God does have a plan, I just wish I knew what it was.
Thank you all for the continued prayers and support. -T