I have to say that yesterday was by far the hardest day of my life, and I know that today will be even harder. I also know that we will get through this, because we have to and as hard as it is, it also carries many blessings with it.
It is about 4 am on Friday morning and we have had a bit of sleep. We all thought that she was leaving us about 3 yesterday, but she just wanted a little bit more attention. (It is amazing how a little one can control so many big ones even up until the end) By the end of yesterday, we had visits from almost all of her therapist and most of our friends. We have been able to pass her around and she has been kissed and loved all day long. It has been a time of such sweet sarrow, and I have been so touched by the words and hugs of our friends. I had always hoped that she would die very quickly, that I would wake up on morning and she would have left us, fast and easy (if it ever could be). But this journey does allow us a different perspective, and I am thankful that God is giving us and the loved ones that she has touched the time that we need to say good bye.
Kelly and I both laid down last night with her between us. Our hands on her chest to feel if she was breathing and warm. Neither of us expected to get any sleep, but we both have had some. I awoke to my husband's sweet voice saying a quiet hello, and I concentrated to feel her breath and was glad to know that she was still here, but very quite. I then replied with a quite I love you and turned slightly and saw a tall figure standing next to my bed. I almost screamed, but caught myself, realizing that it was my wonderful and strong mother. (It was not me that my husband was saying Hello to). She had come back to my house at around 2 this morning to check on all of us. I could tell that she also wanted to hold Molly. So we are up, but I am glad to say, more rested.
Thank you all for all of your prayers. It is God that gives us Grace and Strength! He has provided so many times for us and I know that he hears all the prayer. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you!